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CONFIDENCE THROUGH ADVERSITY

I’ve been quiet on the blog front for the past month. I wanted to come in and write about what I’ve been doing, what I’ve been up to, and some of the things I’ve learned. I’ve learned a lot about myself from the end of April till now.

I happened upon this while browsing Barnes & Noble. While looking at the best sellers, I found this poetry book. I literally turned to the exact page where I found these words.

I believe in God and I believe in “God moments” and that instant in Barnes and Noble was one for me. These words perfectly sum up my life and the struggles I have been faced with, and overcome.  I know I’m privileged and my adversities are far from that of which others face each and every day. However, everyone experiences hardships in life and I’ve had my fair share with an eating disorder and recovery as well as family, relationships and school stresses and struggles.

The past month of May was a very emotional and groundbreaking time for me. Moving to my first apartment, starting a new job,  a straight A semester, and personal problems really has sent my stress levels soaring. I’m not saying that I necessarily handle all these (good and bad) stressors perfectly, but I have been growing from them.

CONFIDENCE

What has come out of all of this surprised me- I have gained confidence that I have never felt before.

For the first time, I am trusting my gut and listening to my heart. In the past, I would think that I was acting on instinct, but it was always laced with fear of what other people would think. That, or I acted so impulsively that it was the other extreme of confidence- cockiness-that ruled my decisions. It was always a false sense of confidence.

GOING FORWARD

Quite honestly, some days I feel like a bad ass. I know what I want and I know what I need to do to get there. Do I have it all figured out? Of course not! However, what I do have is the faith that everything will work out. I am truly listening to my heart and feel at peace with my decisions because I trust that they are the best decisions for me at any given moment. This means that I am allowed to change my mind, and make mistakes. I do what feels right for me in the moment, and make the decision that gives me confidence to face life head on.

I plan to write more about this- confidence and becoming your true self. For now, I wanted to share this message because I want you to know that if you are struggling, do not give up! Dig deep, listen to your heart and don’t give a flying-you-know-what about what anyone else may think. You do you! People who care about you, and respect you, will honor your decisions. And most importantly, by staying true to yourself you are honoring your very being, and with that comes a beautiful feeling of confidence.

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Thinking out Loud #1

Happy Thursday! One day left, and then it’s a three day weekend for me! Anyone else?

I’m linking up with Amanda today over at Running with Spoons to share some randomness from my life lately.

1.I’m almost done with the first week of Spring semester. I have my last class tomorrow at 11:00 and then it’s officially complete! So far so good, I like my teachers and I’m already working ahead in a lot of my classes.
2. Speaking of classes, I was taking 7 but my friends and family convinced me that such a big course load was crazy and too stressful. So in an effort to maintain balance in my life, I dropped one class so now I’m down to 6. I’m taking Microbiology with a lab, Anatomy with a lab, Statistics and College Algebra. This marks the end of my pre reqs for nursing school, so I will be applying to the nursing program in April!!
3. I have a goal of achieving straight A’s this semester. I am so determined to get into nursing school and I know I have it in me to make the grades. With that being sad, I also am making sure that I stay aware of my stress levels and overall health and don’t go nuts trying to get perfect grades.
4. My biggest news this week is I’m moving into my Sorority House!! I got the opportunity to move in because a girl was moving out and she contacted me Tuesday about taking her spot. I was so excited I could hardly stand it! I gave it a lot of thought, weighed my pros and cons, and made the decision to leave my on campus apartment style dorm to move into the house with 25 of my sisters!IMG_2290

          Throwback to my sisterhood retreat!

5. You know when you have the gut feeling? You just feel so strongly about something and you know you’re making the right decision. That was exactly the feeling I had when I confirmed that I would be moving into the house. I love that I am starting to become more confident in myself and my decisions as I get older.
6. The move is happening this weekend, so I will be busy! I’m looking forward to the change and getting closer to all the girls. I know a lot of The Bachelor, girl talks and chick flicks are headed my way!
7. I had a nightmare a few nights ago that I dyed my hair black! It was super random, and I honestly didn’t look that bad with my new black mane; however, I won’t be changing my color up anytime soon! Shout out to my sister though for being brave enough to change her dirty blonde locks to dark brown yesterday! She totally rocks it.

What’s new in your life?

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